Friday, October 23, 2009

Never be replaced


I was walking down the passageway from my class towards the cafeteria in hasty steps.

“Hey there, you’re from Penang right?” a voice called from my back.

I turned behind and render speechless to a shy boy that I met in my first class, first day of college.

Yeah, he was the one sitting alone at the corner of the classroom with huge file and note book of his and never stop jotting down every single thing that the lecturer says. He looks like a nerdy to me. That was my first impression towards him.

We exchanged smiles and started to chatter and walk at a snail's pace. There goes a camaraderie which ensued with earnest hearts.

More than 6 months after I cried so hard till my body can’t stop quivering. That was the first time i was dumped and I could still hear the voice of his patiently whispering to me..

”Never forget that I am here, I would always be. You’ll never loose me. I’ll hold your hands and help you out".

This boy never be bothered with the populace, all he knows that he would be the first person to shield me whenever others tries to bring me down. He never fails; indeed he clogged his ears simply to prove that he knows me better than anyone else.

There were so many times he came in the vicinity of me. Name it..he was always there.
When baseless accusations & enormous rumors made by some cunning bunch and years later I met with an accident and my hip was dislocate till the doctors was certain that I will be a handicap.

He was never ashamed to stand by me and again whispered the same assuring words..
“Be strong, I’m here..i’ve never gone astray. Please don’t let the tears flow or I will feel the throbbing as well.”

He keep on calling me day and night just to check on me..whether or not I’m doing fine. He just never stops. It has been 5 long years and he is still here, always mine..my true buddy. We grew up, evolving from adolescents to adults together. The best person that knows me for who I am and willing to accept me for what I were.

He is now suffering the symptoms of psoriasis and he tried to avoid me few months back but I snap out of it and went straight in front of his face.

“You can’t just run away like that because for all that I know, you need me now as much as I do. Who cares if you have patches all over your body? I care more about your heart rather than your outer shell. No way that I’ll ever let you go. I swear I won’t!”

I can never envisage my life without him.. my guardian angel.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

yeah it's me!!


Hey mates..yeah I know I’ve derelict this blog of mine for quite some time. It’s just that I don’t feel like expressing myself, I guess.

My daily life gyrates around with normal routine. .i wake up early dawn like everyone else and begin the days like a ‘housewife’ (eventhough I’m not married). Why?I had to do all of the house chores from sweeping, wipe up the floor and even do BIT of laundry until noon. But you know what? I just love to keep my house clean & tidy. *naughty grin*

On the other hand, I still have to ‘babysit’ my pets which are 2 tortoises, a couple of cats, and 2 kittens. I am in charge not only towards my parents’ house but also to my lil babies (pets). All in all, Alhamdulillah I did not face any migraine symptoms since I’m back in Penang. Maybe as I’m fully occupied with my responsibilities and lately I still haven’t face any unnecessary behaviors from my surroundings thus the sentiment is simply relaxing.

What else have I been doing since I resign from ik? I’m setting up a small business on my own.* ROFL* Well yes, I am still running it slowly for a start but it seems to be just nice to keep me motivated.

Up till this moment Alhamdulillah, felt like as though saya adalah penganggur yang paling berjaya menguruskan mental & emosi saya sebaiknya. Income tu adela here and there but yeah, no more tears here.